I Miss U...

Its the first month that's the most difficult. Every ticking moment is filled with nostalgia. Gazing at one place, not specifically looking at anything, as in a trance. Dazed and hopeless for the future. How can I live without you? How? Good Lord, I search for an answer from Thee on this one, for it is the most difficult situation I have so far encountered.

No amount of tears shed would bring you back to me. Gone you are, without even saying goodbye. That thought... that very thought makes my tears flow freely as a waterfall! The thought of us chatting and your presence made happy. That smile, that charming smile and twinkling eyes melted my heart. You always knew the right buttons to push, just so you hear my warm hearty laughter! then you would also burst out laughing and giggling at how naughty you are!

Your flawless, supple, smooth and soft skin against mine felt soo good that I took pleasure in oiling and massaging your whole body. Your eyes told me so, of the pleasure you derived from that! The tenderness of your lips still lingers on mine as though it was just five minutes ago. As I caress my lips and think of you, I thank our Almighty God for the moment we shared. For it is through Him, that He giveth and through Him, that He taketh away.

I thank Him for the gift of time. From the time since I first glanced and laid my eyes on you. The first time I held you in my arms. Kissed and hugged you tightly, though still weak, knowing we were going to together forever and ever, till death do we part! The bond we had is beyond any human comprehension, only God and any mother out there, will understand what it entails! Since inception, nurturing you in my belly as you grow from a tiny cell to a complete young one of human beings, is one of God's many great miracles of life!

This is the beginning of my story. This is a mother's story of losing a child. My journey through the life and time God blessed me with Mishi Mbaruku.

This Day!

Today is indeed a special day that which cannot go without mention for it is the first of November, twenty eleven, i.e 1/11/11. Throughout the world numerous occurrences are being noted  for future reference on how this historic day was marked. Not wanting to be left behind, I found time to blog despite being extremely beat after a hectic day!

I must say it was an interesting day because I had like three assignments that needed my immediate attention and still found time to hook up with a special friend after a five-year absence. I didn't believe it myself and hadn't imagined that time can fly that fast! We parted ways after tossing our glasses to '...a new beginning!'

Speaking of new beginnings, yesterday, Monday 30th October 2011, marked the birth of 7th Billion person in the world! Imagine that! 7th Billion! Something huhm?!

Wishing y'all a remarkable and memorable 1/11/11!

Today...

Today I went down memory lane. I listened to my all time favorite songs. 99.9% of them are love songs! HMPH!... you shoulda seen me! O-M-G! I was suddenly re-born. Full of energy. Back to the days of my teenhood! GOSH! I thank God I came across the CDs, flash-disk and radio cassette as I was re-arranging my room, placing things in order since moving house. Going through my stuff that was nicely stashed for a later reference, the photos and my music was the icing in the cake!

I called my girls and we had a blast and really good laugh as we went down memory lane. They asked questions, made comments and compliments. THAT MOMENT... that very moment... is and will be for a very long time, well imprinted in my mind! It was totally amazing! You shoulda seen the bonding session! HMPH! Alhamdullilah! I thank God for the gift of love!

Back to my music, I am a sucker for love songs... They get me all mushy and lovey dovey. Since my childhood days of the Cinderella fairy tales, when love ruled and conquered the smitten heart, I instantly got hooked up to love songs. From the days when we would wait patiently wait by the radio for our favorite songs to play so that we could dub them into cassettes! I'm I talking to anyone out there? :) Boy! did I graduate to be a master dubber or what! :)

But gone are those days. Technological advancements have moved practically everything to another level! Don't even get me started! This is a topic for another day. Today... today I will definitely have a good night sleep. That which is said to be as a baby's. For my heart is light, full of happiness and lotsa love!